John Schuchman's Blog

John Schuchman — Wed, 20 Feb 2008 18:31:20 +0000

When you finally see love around you

John Schuchman — Tue, 19 Feb 2008 18:31:00 +0000

Wow.

Today it finally hit me.

ya know, eventually you see all your friends getting engaged and married and start to wonder “What about me”

Today was my day. I was looking at all of these former friends of mine from high school when I traveled the country debating. And I saw 3 friends who have been married in the last 6 months and 2 who are recently engaged. and these are all people between 19-21 years old

Does this mean they got married/engaged to fast or does it mean I’ve wasted a lot of time?

Valentine’s Day

John Schuchman — Fri, 15 Feb 2008 23:39:00 +0000

19 years old

19 years of being single.

19 worthless Valentine’s days

and yet, I’m not unhappy.

I can live with where I’m at right now

Sure I’d like that to change, sure it gets frustrating at times. But I know I’m right where God wants me, and that’s enough.

deja vu

John Schuchman — Wed, 13 Feb 2008 02:33:00 +0000

I think people need to know this. I get Deja Vu. I have had it before and it happen again last night. I was listening to Jim’s sermon on Jesus walking on water which I missed a few weeks ago and heard the term Deja Vu in it. this has nothing to do with the sermon, but with Deja Vu itself. I’ve had it and last night at The High School Youth group, it happened again. Mike was saying something, which i can not recall right now, but he said something and I remembered being there, with those 4 high schoolers, with Mike sitting in that same living room, before. It freaked me out. The whole thing freaks me out. I have these dreams, which I don’t think of as awkward or important, and then… I see it in real life. Same place, same people, same situation. I know that people say Deja Vu is just you going faster than your mind and you think your seeing it twice, but that IS NOT what happens with me. I really dream it, and then see it. I don’t know how or why, but its happened about 20 times that I can remember and twice in the last 4 weeks.

I don’t know what to think about it.

the need of the culture around us

John Schuchman — Mon, 11 Feb 2008 14:30:00 +0000

Yesterday I was in NYC for a few hours, and was just so suprised at all the terrible things I saw there. It wasn’t like I’ve never been there before, but yesterday I just saw a different city. Yesterday I saw a city that was just wicked and sick, which was interesting because the sermon We heard yesterday from Jim was from Mark 7.

9And he said to them: “You have a fine way of setting aside the commands of God in order to observe^[c] your own traditions! 10For Moses said, ‘Honor your father and your mother,’^[d] and, ‘Anyone who curses his father or mother must be put to death.’^[e] 11But you say that if a man says to his father or mother: ‘Whatever help you might otherwise have received from me is Corban’ (that is, a gift devoted to God), 12then you no longer let him do anything for his father or mother. 13Thus you nullify the word of God by your tradition that you have handed down. And you do many things like that.”

14Again Jesus called the crowd to him and said, “Listen to me, everyone, and understand this. 15Nothing outside a man can make him ‘unclean’ by going into him. Rather, it is what comes out of a man that makes him ‘unclean.’ “^[f]

17After he had left the crowd and entered the house, his disciples asked him about this parable. 18“Are you so dull?” he asked. “Don’t you see that nothing that enters a man from the outside can make him ‘unclean’? 19For it doesn’t go into his heart but into his stomach, and then out of his body.” (In saying this, Jesus declared all foods “clean.”)

20He went on: “What comes out of a man is what makes him ‘unclean.’ 21For from within, out of men’s hearts, come evil thoughts, sexual immorality, theft, murder, adultery, 22greed, malice, deceit, lewdness, envy, slander, arrogance and folly. 23All these evils come from inside and make a man ‘unclean.’ “

I’ll discuss the actual sermon in another post this week, but its just interesting that I read this and then saw much of it in NYC. Its not just there though, its In the Lehigh Valley and everywhere else to. Now I am starting to understand the point of a church plant….

Isn’t that the problem?

John Schuchman — Wed, 06 Feb 2008 21:24:00 +0000

Yesterday I drove past a church on the way to school, and a sign outside said “If you don’t live it,you probably don’t believe it.” It was a really good question and one that I have asked myself lately, and yet it was also a big “duh”. If I don’t spend time reading the bible, if I don’t love my family and have a heart to serve NO MATTER where I am, do I really believe in those things? I know the answers, now I just need to show everyone that I believe

A recent search

John Schuchman — Tue, 05 Feb 2008 19:01:00 +0000

A resent google for “pornography” led to my blog. First off, whoever you are… bad idea…seriously. Second off, I’m glad you didn’t find what you were looking for on my blog. 3rd of all, I hope you had a chance to read through some of my post. Have a great day

first grade and a test of my patience

John Schuchman — Fri, 01 Feb 2008 00:57:00 +0000

So boys and girls….my first grade came in today for this semester. I had missed a Comp + Lit test last week when I was asked to leave home. Well I took it today after my first class (which I also had a test in and it went pretty well, should be between a B- and a A) and tonight I got the test back . I had thought I did terribly on it and would get like a C-. Well I got a B+ so I was very happy. I called my dad and he asked why I didn’t get an A- ( he says he was kidding but I know the student in him was serious, bu that’s the motivation I need so its cool).

In other news….I have no patience.

I have learned that this week?

Why you ask?
Well….because I have checked my churches website basically every 5 minutes of every day this week because their new website was supposed to go live Monday. Well its not live and I am getting frustrated. So maybe someone at Cornerstone is testing my patience? HAHA

either way if anyone from Cornerstone reads this…please tell SOMEONE that I am GOING CRAZY in anticipation.

thanks

JS roll out

Me and Relationships.

John Schuchman — Mon, 28 Jan 2008 08:30:00 +0000

I’m hurting right now. I’m broken right now.

I’ve been thinking about me and relationships, not just any…but that ONE.

I’ll be honest…I cried tonight. I broke down.

I said this

” I want someone to promise me, to tell me and make sure it is true, that I will not always be alone, that the one girl is out there somewhere. I want someone to promise me that all the hurt I’m going through will someday be worthwhile. “

Can someone please promise me that True Love Waits? I mean is this some sick joke? Am I going to get to the end of my life, single and alone and realize that this was all a big ‘jokes on John’. I hope not, but right now I see the relationships around, and me desiring for that, but I don’t want just a relationship for the sake of being in one, but rather, I want to find that girl I’m going to spend forever with. I see the relationships all around and eventually it just hits the peak and I break down.

Tonight I broke down and just cried.
I’m a mess. I covet your prayers.

What’s my vision?

John Schuchman — Mon, 28 Jan 2008 01:42:00 +0000

So vision dinner was last night…

Food was awesome thanks to my amazing parents and Sarah who helped me get the meal together

So I guess the biggest question I have is where do I go?
I honestly thought my decision would be simple, and yet… now I don’t know what I want to do, or rather where God has called me to go… It’s frustrating to be uncertain about my future.

I’m excited to see where God calls me and what ministries I can serve in in the future.